Posted by getting honest on December 28, 2000 at 14:34:28:
In Reply to: Very controversial stuff!!! posted by Cari on December 28, 2000 at 14:19:55:
: I made you look!!! Even if you pretend like you never saw the message, you know that I made you look! Even if you show your passive aggressive tendencies by not posting an obligatory repsponse, you know that I made you look. Even if we never discuss it, you know that I made you look!!! Even if we never exchange those knowing glances, you know that I made you look! Even if I don't type another word, you know that I'm bored and need to get a life ;)
glad you did. sometimes i want to post on here but to be honest unless it's G or something about gingerpoets i wonder if i'll even get a response. no biggy--just being real. i feel like i don't know anyone anymore. i know alot of people will say that it's my fault. i don't even care anymore. i just don't like it. i know i don't go to the same church as you all......since you all go to at least....well....let's count.....crosstown, homegroups, the River, Sacred Heart, lost & found, etc. who knows. we are all over now. the scattered tribes......anyway, i still want to be connected. i don't always have a car or free time like many of you. i would like to see you more. anyway, life is crazy and it definitely changes us. we can't keep living in our little safe kingdoms. the world is big and full of variety and change. God is constant though. i don't go to church with alot of you now and so i realize that i can't relate to you in churchy ways. so, that's cool. and i'm growing weary of talking to peolpe and one or the other of us will say: WE SHOULD STAY IN TOUCH and then you never see the fruit of that: I'm not talking about John McGee here. He alwyas follows through. I'm not laying a guilt trip on anyone either so don't say that. I can see this n myself too. I am going to quit making promises. I want to stay friends and stay close but I know life isn't like that all the time. I just want everyone to know I'm still here if they need a friend. They might have to drive though. Also, I will say this. I still am very connected to some people I knew from Crossover. I live with Marc, I am in touch with Terry Parm alot. And of course I see Spydr and Bob quite a bit. These people plus Steve Holland have remained even after the church connection was gone. I think the dynamic at work here is that our friendship was developed on alot more levels than just the church level. Does this make sense? I want to be close to alot of people: esp. Jason Daniels, Matt, John Tremper, Joe Hornbeck, etc. This isn't happening. Do I get upset? No! Do I cave in and never try? No! I just keep the door open. Hopefully one day I can kidnap all of you and go somewhere on some island and keep you all to myself. This includes everyone. I saw Al the other day. She is ready to have her baby. Congrats to Paula for bringing forth new life. Neat-O! Total respect. Hey, I also wanted to tell you guys that I got my favorite movies for Christmas: Fight Club, The Talented Mr. Ripley (starring the amazingly sexy Jude Law) and American Beauty. Can't wait to check these out!
Much love and I am here if anyone needs me, Bill
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