Posted by clover on April 30, 2002 at 15:54:57:
i'm going to really try my best to recall all these events, but all this happened sunday night, and here it is tuesday afternoon, after a long, hard day of work. i would have posted yesterday, but i didn't get home and online till eleven, and then the phone rang and it was time for bed. so, here it goes.......
sunday night i had a horrible time trying to get to sleep. i sat in bed for a little while reading the last few chapters of Hebrews, since Steve had mentioned them in church. then i put on Chasing Furies to go to sleep, to my avail. i kept waking up, every hour or so, with this really strange, yet spiritual sensation. i wasn't sure if i was annoyed or happy. there was something going on in my mind, but it was way down deep and i couldn't quite figure out what it was.
then i think it was trying to surface in my dream. i can only remember bits and pieces, and it doesn't quite make sense to me. i was on a very large wooden ship, looked almost like a pirate ship. there were other people around too, they were supposed to be good friends of mine, but they didn't really resemble any of my friends. in fact they seemed more like my students, only older. it was super windy out, and the skies were black. but not a black like normal florida stormy black. it was a deep, blue/black, like the skies were painted. it was quite eerie. there was a hurricane coming, one stronger than ever experienced before, and we were all on this boat. everyone else was running around screaming. pandemonium. but i refused to do anything. i kept saying that it was going to be okay, god would never let me die like this, and not this early. on, and on, i carried about having faith and trusting god. and i was feeling all tingly, i think this feeling was more than just in the dream. then there was some sort of scene change and i just gotten to a dock and was about to get on the boat, same boat, and we sailed out into the water, to face the storm. i had this idea to close off the top of the boat with seal sinew (how i had gotten the sinew, beats me). so we enclosed the top of the boat, this way if the boat tipped in the storm, we wouldn't fall out and drown (think of it as serran wrap on a bowl). i was determined to prove to the other people god was not going to let me down, because i was so faithful.
i never did get to find out what happened. shortly after we enclosed the boat, there was another shift change. i was on some sort of motorized tram type thing, going through what seemed like a hotel, but it also seemed like the big ball ride at Epcot. i remember realizing that we were safe inside, from the storm, but there were other things going on that made me nervous, and there were dinosaurs too, just ambling about. i guess i tried thinking too hard to put it all together, because i woke myself up.
needless to say, it was a very weird night. but i must say, i still had that indescribable spiritual feeling when i woke up. i know that there's some sort of underlying message to the dream that i'm supposed to get. i'm still meditating on it. i told jesse, and he related it to the story of the disciples freaking out when they were in the boat and the storm came., then jesus took care of the storm and rebuked them for having little faith. i wouldn't have made that connection, but i can see it. i'm still sure there's more tho'.