Posted by Mister Metal on July 30, 2002 at 00:08:33:
ok in my feeble attempts to communicate..my hurt feelings have got the best of me..and i unknowingly hurt people..i hope yall know i am not out to get yall..i just hurt..and at time hurt people hurt..
IN awe..unearned friendship
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Pardon me for the times that i added another layer to the wall of separation..
instead of loving you.
Please understand that i hurt..i fear..yet i am your friend..
Those times..i hurted..and did not laugh with you.
Too busy remembering the pain that you did not cause.
Those moments should have been filled with joy..I overloaded my portion with sadness.
Forgive me friend,and yet you still are hear.
It boggles me..leaves me in awe with mouth wide open.
This never was earned...what you do..for me..the small things..unforgotten.
ok i dont know what else to say..i wrote this poem a while ago..i see it as fittin..ok granted i feel hurt..by church as a whole..not clf..the whole church..i mean yeah..but i did not mean to hurt any of yall..or cause offense..i should have chosen different words i know that..i was hurt..lonely as ever...and when i mean hurt..i mean still hurtin from stuff from the past..and i just posted on the forum not thinkin that people would see it as offensive..so yeah...what i am tryin to say..is..i did not mean to hurt or get any of yall worked up...and take my apology for face value..i hope..and understand i was not lookin to find an oportunity to hurt any of yall..i know that all yall have every reason to never talk to me..shun me..even kick me out of church..i dont deserve to have any yall as friends..i dont..i felt that way on sunday..i may not have shown that..but that is how i felt yesterday..really like..crummy..not really deservin of any kind workd or gesture...ok thats all have to say now..hope this hits home.