Posted by Two Feathers on August 22, 2002 at 08:23:25:
In Reply to: whoa its hard this friendship thing.. posted by Mister Metal on August 22, 2002 at 00:24:29:
> like this week i have been thinkin bout sylvie..and when she comes to church this week..and just >really how its been really tense..and wierd..hopin that i will be as nice as i can to her..and >that things wont be so wierd now...and now i am seein her after not seein her for like 2 months at >least..and i just wish things were not so freakin wierd...ehh..and now i am just thinkin bout how >hard it is..just to keep friends...and just how things get so misinterpreted..just really wish it >was not so hard..maybe its easier for yall..as you guys are way better at this friend thing than i >am..it never seems to work out how i want it to..its really upsettin..i see all of you guys and i >get so envious..like yall have it downpacked,this friend thing...and are so closely nit..i feel >like a F*&^in martian..and i am such a screwup..damn..thats all i have to say...
huh...??? are you suggesting that i am one of the people who have it downpacked? I would tend to disagree with you my friend. there are many times that i question myself, how close i am to the people i call friends and how close they are to me. keeping a friendship going is always a work in progress, sometimes it takes more work, but it is always moving, one way or the other. It is up to the people in the friendship to decide which way it moves.
I don't feel closely knit to people either. I have learned (it took a lot of years) that it was just me that felt that way (and I still do). But I know that this group really are my friends and they do like me. In the things they say, the actions, mostly the little things. It shows through, even to someone like me who is more isolationistic (is that a word?) than most.