Posted by phunkle kitten on September 24, 2002 at 11:43:51:
In Reply to: Re: Life sucks sometimes! posted by Mister Metal on September 24, 2002 at 07:54:22:
: : : Oh, and another thing, I need friends!
pam you are loved....your boys remind me of my sister she was the one who drove her crazy..but my mom did not gove up and for the time that i have known you you never give up...one of these you ll have 4 grown men that was raised with love faithfulnesss solid direction with a mom and a dad who are both great..pam you are so special you really are..kris
: : YOU GOT EM! :-)
: : hang in there. one day they will be gone and then they flock back around with their own kids. yeah. that will be cool. well, this is my theory anyway.
: yeah i kinda sorta feel ya on the lifesucks tip..i feel this way a lott too..i dont have four teenager boys..i am only 23..almost 24.i want to have kids..its kinda hard to do that on my own when i aint married...well if anything either way i want to adopt oneday. i hear ya tho..i get really hard on myself and feel like..ugh things get intense..i feel so not belongin whereever i go..well thats what my head does to me..we all have our stuff we are dealin with..mine is i feel i really really suck at being a friend..i try and try and try..people dont see my heart..they run like hell...or i just dont feel i get the reciprocation that friends give..so i just get really hard on myself a lott...even at times i tell myself what am i doin in church as i have had so many bad experiences in church and at times i feel that i dont belong anywhere...well what i am tryin to communicate pam..is that i understand in my own chaotic way..i deal with my own stuff and while it may be very different from what you encounter on a daily basis..its stuff..and sometimes it really gets me down..but hang in there..you have no idea how close breakthrough is around the corner if you give up now..you will never know..
: oh and yeah i will try my darnest to be a friend too...i really suck at that..as i seem to scare everyone away..but i will do what i can ok?