Posted by PP on October 03, 2002 at 08:41:36:
In Reply to: this post has nothing to do with bills cool stuff..i need prayer posted by phunkle kitten on October 03, 2002 at 01:39:34:
: this post has nothing to do with bills cool stuff for some reason i could not do a new topic..( sometimes i despise computers)
: anyway,
: the reason of my post is this..i need prayer..for the last few weeks i have been battling serious depression. sometimes i go to church and smile and try my best to do a good job with percussion or sharing a piece of poetry..only to go home and battle depression..a couple of times lately i did not get out of bed for awhile. i am looking for work and trying to do band business inbetween which is basic life. i do spend time with Jesus..i do try find a quiet place and all that good stuff. but it only gets worse..lately i have been crying alot,,no iam not to the point of physical danger. but it has played with my mind and knowing some of you has helped...even as i write this i want to erase it and keep it hidden..like there is not enough crap happening in everyone personal lives..like cari grandma christi's life kat's money problem. i dont want to seem like a issue to anyone here. but the last few months. i feel like i really belong without trying to do.thanks i know my healing wont come form people.but non the less you are more family then my birth family and some of you know more dirt that my therapist..i have this never ending depression..there has been times in the past where i wanted to die end it all..and one of the reason why i did not i was living with cari and steve,,,and i could hear steve after the shock tears etc...my God look at this mess..please forgive me as i puke to you today..
: pour ryan..i love that man..sunday i came home and cried hard..and he did his best to try to encourage me.thanks dood.. as i said i have had this for a few years and it gets worse..i am notplanning on giving up..thanks for the space to write how i am really doing.....
: kris
Dear Kris,
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I do know it is the most aweful feeling. Please know we are praying for you. We are here for you.