Posted by PS on December 07, 2002 at 09:11:48:
In Reply to: frustrated... posted by Mister Metal on December 07, 2002 at 07:36:47:
: i just have had GOD tuggin at my heart..and distractions..people wantin to hang out...and simply not knowin what to do with it has left me really upset and not knowing where to go..
: not havin any clue where to go from here..for years and years i have tried to get this GOD thing worked out..and i just seem to mess things up everytime..
: i get distracted...everyone wants to hang out..or my stinkin flesh wants to do what i dont want it to and doesnt want to submit to GOD..it just wants to wreck havoc..and i am tryin to tune in to the spiritual..but dammit its hard by myself..i dont know if even expecting anything is right..i just cant do this on my own..i cant..i am dying here and have no idea what to do or where to go from here..i guess what i am askin for is prayer if nothing else..i am really really discouraged..
: i am a failure..i have been irreverent..irresponsible..and insensitive to GOD's call on my live and his leading..
: i just feel like i have been a disgrace to his name..
You haven't. And you are not a failure. The fact you care so much shows that you are more drawn to God than you think. Hang in there. You are the Metaldudio. Emotiorifical. Metalatino. Raulificentiorama. (...and so much more I cannot pronounce.)