Posted by phunklekitten on February 05, 2003 at 14:07:37:
hiya.. i promise no storming the gates here.
if i may.. a few months ago i did something really bad. i know i did hurt some people. infact i have a history of hurting people. i am extremely headstrong over emotional i have ego problems, i can get jealous, react out of line. i have been known to say spiteful words, words behind people backs, and words that are filled with malice to peoples faces. i can be a friend but i also wounded with almost calaculating moves pain as well. i owe debts of friendship as well as financial to individuals as well. i am not good with fiancial control either. i have history filled with confusions, sexual, genderly, and where my place is in this world. i have stepped out of line and stepped on leaderships toes. i am not making exuses on the why of all this. i am embarrashed about all. i am very very sorry that i hurt you all as a church and as friends. i am sorry that i have done things to destroy relationships that i did enjoy. i do miss you all. the reason why you havent seen me is because of me. i am ashamed. forgot the prodical son..heck he was was much brighter. all i can do is repent to you all as a family and say i will show fruits of repentance. it might take a few months but i will do this.i am also seeking counseling financial as well as mental/emotional .if any of you choose not to forgive me i do understand. i do miss you and i dont know if i will visit in the future. maybe once i forgiver me for me being.
phunkle