Posted by giveawayboy on March 28, 2003 at 08:40:06:
Kara came by and picked me up and we were off to Cafe Adagio to hear Molr Drammaz, in this dark red-walled hole in the wall, full of people who seemed to be happy, but also seemed to be lonely--humans??. It seemed like if someone would hit a certain switch everyone's true state would be revealed and what seemed like close friendly revelry for some might give up the lonliness it was concealing, still some people seemed truly happy as well--some seemed plastic. Finally I got a beer (no Coke) and set out to enjoying my evening. I can remember when the band started up. There was this period of about two to three minutes of noise beginning to assert itself, of a groove trying to find itself. soon though the duo was going strong and I began having all kinds of strange thoughts. I kept looking at this table in front of me. There were all these people there. I couldn't tell if they were talking Polish or something else. This lady serving them drinks was talking to some of them in English, some in another language. I remember seeing these two guys in particular who seemed happy and confident. I wondered why I didn't seem happy and confident. So I mimicked one of those guys who was sitting up straight. Ha! As soon as I sat up straight, he slouched down, hanging over the table, bending his back--whatever, just like I had been. He still projected this sort of carefree, enjoyment of life type thing. He just seemed to wear life naturally around him w ease. His girlfriend, I imagine seemed the same way. Then he and his friend just seemed to know how to talk to each other. I began to realize that in many cases I couldn't just do that. Luckily I have a few friends like Steve Holland or Ryan where I can let my hair hang down. Perhaps I didn't need to feel so lonely or compare myself to these guys. I kept feeling that they all probably worked customer service or computer jobs and I kept thinking how I don't feel normal. So, that table left and then these other guys came and sat there. The one thing that struck me about them was that they seemed younger than me (20's) and two of them really pissed me off since they had sideburns. I could never grow sideburns. I don't have the hair for it. Anyway, they just took their sideburns forgranted. It really drove me mad. Well, that irritated me to no end. One of those guys was a very odd looking sort. He had a HUGE mouth with big lips and large heavy eyebrows. His whole countenance seemed more drawn than created. He looked like a cartoon character. He looked like Shreck, only with black hair and a baseball cap. His teeth were just atrocious. He seemed happy and relaxed. Still, in moments between his chattering w his friends, he looked lost. I don't know if he was--it just seemd like that. Well, I don't know why I'm telling you all this. I saw two women there who seemed bored and enthusiastic at the same time. And then I saw one semi-bovine looking Italian lady with her hair all done up marvelously like Elvira and I thought about what her house must look like. I was trying to think about her bedroom and her dresser top and her patio and her family room. Oh well. I imagined her whole life. Then this little fritzy spritzy blonde sprite comes bouncing up to the Italian lady and it was like her little pal. Both of them had big hair and both of them repulsed me. I guess I need to mention that I enjoyed the concert except for this presumptuous guy playing a horn. He had no business being up there whatsoever. Michael Cleary and I played keyboards together once up in Lofthaven. We were good. Really. This guy sucked. I need to mention that he wasn't part of Molr Drammaz. They were awesome. I heard the drummer was influenced by Tom Ze and Caetano Veloso--two of my faves. Well, I also didn't mention that the other guy, the non-drumming guy, well, he was a handsome devil and the whole room was painted red and he was wearing a red shirt and jeans and he was kind of a devil himself. I liked that guy. Wow! He was as cool as Jamiroquai. You know-the more those guys jammed together, the more I was just getting into it. I haven't seen two guys jam like that in a long time. Then I kept thinking that Jason Daniels and I were like this Superhero duo thing, like maybe a more butched up modern version of the Wonder Twins, and that all our friends were Superheros and we all lived in this kind of better version of the Hall of Justice. I can't explain it. And then the more I thought of Jason and me being superheros I thought of the Beastie Boys and some new country that was like a fusion of Japan and Poland and Brasil, only better. Oh well, I'm just rambling. Hope I said something good in here.