Posted by smelly little girl on May 17, 2003 at 10:37:47:
In Reply to: being in love w god posted by giveawayboy on May 15, 2003 at 17:13:33:
: being in love w God is good. I just don't know how to do it, since he's so invisible.
: later, Bill
I completely feel you, Bill. I have an intellectual knowledge that I would like to be totally consumed by my love for God, but I don't have the consuming desire that inspires my action to seek that relationship at all cost. The tragedy is that I think I need to do something, but I feel completely helpless and devoid of the desire to move. It's like I'm a smelly little girl sitting around waiting for Prince Charming. I know that Prince Charming is going to pass me by if I don't bathe, so I sit around wishing that I had the energy to get up and take a bath. Lately, I feel really grieved by my complacency. I think that I would like to be "crazy" as Nancy describes it. I would like to be totally consumed with love for God, but He Is Invisible to my creature eyes. I know He's there and I think I love him, but it's more like I love the idea of him. I guess what I'm saying is that I think I'm not consumed by love because I can't sense his presence in a way that I'm familiar with. I want my relationship with God to be so tangible that I know it's not something that I've imagined in my head. I don't want to be the smelly little girl dreaming about Prince Charming.