Posted by quequel on November 02, 2003 at 16:59:16:
In Reply to: Psalm 86 posted by Terry on November 01, 2003 at 08:14:40:
I will keep praying for you. God has His hand on you, even though sometimes it's there for comfort more than anything else.
:God I know you have the best for me. I want to learn to surrender, honest, just not this way.
Boy, I've felt this.
:"If you have faith and are holy then Satan can't hurt you and life would be perfect. Satan only has the power you give him. Your life should be filled with victory if you are truly following God. If your sick it is because you don't have enough faith."
Aah. Because of course, the truly holy are never ill and always drive shiny cars, unlike those clearly unbelieving martyrs and missionaries whose stories more resemble the Clark family. Whoops. Sarcasm probably has no place here. But even Jesus had to go through pain and death, which from the sermons I've been getting lately, are things that we shouldn't have to go through if we have faith. I'm not bitter, though. It's just like stories of the tooth fairy--preachers are people, too. In reality, God makes each life different. He's much smarter than we are, and He knows there's so much more than the few decades we spend on this earth. It's cool that He still uses these paltry decades to grow us so well.
Terry, I wish I could take it away. I pray for you every night, because I know it's rough, although I'm sure I don't know the half of it. God loves you. He's made you a real flower, and He's got you in His arms, where nothing can separate you. It's hard to trust and not just be mad, but I think you're looking in the right book. David knew a little about fear and pain, and a lot about love and trust.