Posted by giveawayboy on January 10, 2003 at 01:30:49:
In Reply to: Relating to the 'Point of View' posted by jason on January 09, 2003 at 12:54:49:
I read all these things people write about God. I read things I have written on this very messageboard about God. In my understanding, God is the supreme loving Creator being. I don't always believe this though. There is some level of will and intellect, and I hope, faith, where I do believe in him. I would not deny he is there. I believe in him definitely by faith, and it seems to run against alot of what seems natural to me. My biggest struggle would be in the moral life, since it is tied to what I know about God, or what I thought I knew about God. I think that everything is related, so I cannot see morality apart from God, or his nature. This makes life difficult and awkward for me. Still, there is something fundamentally good for me about believing in God. So, I spend alot of time in moral confusion. Still, it's better than spending alot of time in possible sin. I don't always believe in or understand God. I am not sure about alot of things. This makes life in the everyday world difficult, and there are many voices out there other than a Christian voice. Also, the sad thing is that even among the Christians, there is not usually a unified voice. It's hard for me to believe in God sometimes when I feel like he is playing a cruel joke on me, but then I think about it and I recall that if god is truth and love then he would not play cruel jokes on people. It's all real tedious. Also, I get very lonely sometimes and I think that it will be hard for me to find another person to share my life with. I'm starting to want that but sometimes I feel God doesn't want me to have that. But still, I know wants only good things for us, his children. Who knows? Thanks for reading this.
Bill