Posted by jen on April 17, 2001 at 19:26:00:
In Reply to: Re: a few more thoughts posted by John on April 17, 2001 at 17:22:54:
::::And thank you so much John McGee for your cryptic warnings. That's like saying "I hinted as best I could, why didn't you pick up on it?" Ducked and weaved around the real issue? Did I not start my first post with full admission of my flaws? What more should I say? That it's my total and complete fault that I feel alone? That I brought it all upon myself and no one ever let me down? I'm sorry I must have missed all the calls and concern. And I am not even speaking of you, so please let it go. And I'm not talking about this situation that just occurred. I hear that people ask how I'm doing---well, why can't they ask me themselves? I believe it's not terribly hard to call or email and perhaps reach out if they are really concerned. Words are nice, but all these people that you claim care about me, I don't see them acting on it. If someone thinks I'm mad at them, then have the gall to confront me and ask me. You might find I'm not such a bad person. And I might even be standing on my own two feet......
: you are the one who called us at 2:30 saying you never wanted to see us again. Who said we were tired of anything? All I said was that I can't keep a clear conscience with other people if I listen to all of this stuff about them from you. Everything isn't all about you.
: If you need help go to the source of help, God, not people. Humans will always let you down. But no one here has even done that. We know that you do this when things go bad and that you will recover, we're just waiting on the next peak for you. It has nothing to do with being abandoned or rejected. You were expecting someone to run to your rescue when you let on that you were going to do something drastic,(i.e. leave town, not see us anymore, leave the church) well that didn't happen. you need to learn to stand on your own feet at some point Jen, you are plenty old enough. Your life is not in danger, you just feel bad because the inevitable finally occured. I warned you it would, I have many times in the past. I increased the frequency of my warnings as I saw the day of it approaching, you know what i am talking about. Falling is one thing, but just as we talked about Steve's phone call from the guy going to see his girlfriend and looking for an excuse by calling the helpline you ignored the warnings. Why do you think I brought that up! You have to admit it and quit fishing for blame before you can help yourself. Look back at these posts, you have contiunally ducked and weaved around the real issue and redirected the conversation back to what others have or haven't done for you.