Posted by thistle on June 10, 2002 at 09:18:22:
In Reply to: please pray posted by clover on June 10, 2002 at 02:23:34:
: okay guys, i feel really ackward coming out with this, but you are after all my family. please pray for me. i am going through some mental hurdles that i didn't realize existed till they hit me like a mack truck tonight. i'm seriously trying to find my faith and comfort in all of this, but i'm feeling incredibly incomplete. as i asked my best friend, "have you ever felt completely loved by so many wonderful people, yet felt utterly alone inside?" , that is as close as i can come to summing up my feelings. i need to remove myself and meditate, which is my #1 priority at this point and how i'll be spending my day tomorrow. but, please, in the mean time, please pray that i find love, healing, and comfort.
: i love you guys
That's it... I'm not letting you hang out with them anymore. You were supposed to be having "fun."
I can't very well be jealous that you had "fun" at the campfire if you come away feeling like that, can I? Seriously, though, I'll be praying for you. Call me when you're ready to talk. I have a feeling I know what part of this is about.
BTW, I had this really strange dream that is quickly disappearing from my memory, but it kind of left me with similar feelings. I don't know about you, but sometimes takes me a while to separate my dreams from reality. I won't go into detail about the dream now, but I was deserted by my friends and wildly running scared through really dark alleys. There were some really funny peculiarities about my dream. Sometimes I have no clue what's in my head.
We love you, too!