Posted by Two Feathers on July 16, 2002 at 20:33:17:
In Reply to: what do you think of my poem? posted by Two Feathers on July 14, 2002 at 22:59:48:
The replies so far I have really enjoyed. They went in directions I hadn't thought about after I finished the poem and thought about it. I don't know how much of the poem I can explain, as some of it is close to me, but here is what it meant to me after I wrote it and looked at it.
At first I just wrote the four lines. Something touched me and I scribbled the four lines down. As I looked at them I immediately saw the "Nightdreams" but a moment later I saw a different order which turned out to be "Daydreams" I was suprised that when I saw the poem in the "daydreams" arrangement. The titles, Nightdreams and Daydreams, are just that, dreams when I am sleeping and thoughts that run through my head when I am awake.
The "happy" nightdreams are dreams that I have had and in them I am married with a family. I have never been married before but it is something that I truly long for and wait for the day it will begin. The "not happy" nightdreams are unfortunately one i have had also. Many times I have woken up in a sweat or gasping with my heart pounding. I am cold when I do. Most of the times it is being shot that wakes me up. Not the actual getting shot most times, but after having been shot, the point when you are laying there and you know you've been shot and just as I die in the dream, I wake up.
The "happy" daydreams are my thoughts when I think of my future. I have never been married and due to some events in my childhood and past i sometimes question if that would ever become reality. I have been told by a very close friend that I would make someone a great husband and a good father. Sometimes I have doubts and wonder if it is better to stay single. The "not happy" Daydreams... there have been a few times in my life where I seriously thought I wanted for this existence to end. To be able to be in Heaven with Jesus/God/Spirit, to finally be at peace and happy, to forget about this shell and the pain. I just wanted something to happen. To be in the wrong place at the wrong (right?) time and "wake up" in warmth and light and joy and peace.
John - I really like your comments about two realities in the same place and the paradoxes.