Posted by giveawayboy on November 18, 2002 at 07:56:51:
In Reply to: Billy!?!?!?!?!?!!! posted by PP on November 18, 2002 at 06:46:28:
Thanks Pam,
To Pam:
Actually, I wasn't feeling bad last night, but just weird. I can't explain why other than perhaps I lack social skills and don't know how to maintain myself in groups sometimes. As long as I can find a conversation to be a part of I'm O.K. But I really struggled last night but it's O.K. I can't expect everyone to like the same topics that I consider interesting. I know if Xavier was there we would have been talking about things. He and I have the ability to talk about a wide variety of things. The main thing is that it's not all about ME so that helps me be at ease. I can just sit and listen even if I don't think I'll fit in. It's really O.K. I've been practicing for years. That and the fact that I have a friendship that went sour once with a member of the church that meets across from you on sunday nights, so when I'm right there it's real hard not to think about that. Especially, since he's right across the street. That's all. Overall, I had a good night yesterday. Ryan really helped me out alot, and so did Raul, even though he and I talked online later. I just hope you don't think I was ignoring you. I AM hard of hearing and sometimes don't know when I'm being addressed.
To EVERYONE ELSE:
And, if anyone here feels like I'm ignoring you, please come talk to me about it. Maybe I don't know you are trying to connect. Really, you don't have to build up to some perfect intro. You can just come up to me and ask if we can talk. I'm very approachable. I have heard some people tell me that a few of you had wanted to get to know me, but thought I wouldn't want to reciprocate, well, come ask me. Also, I have heard others had some confusing notions about me from hearing things other people said about me, or from reading something on the board, and then not asking me about it. I really want you to ASK ME about that stuff. There is no taboo topic w me. You can ask me whatever you want to know. If you go somewhere I don't want to go, I'll let you know, but I won't be angry with you. I'd be more upset if you WANTED to talk to me, and never did.
Bill