Posted by kat on May 13, 2003 at 23:33:40:
In Reply to: A question of trust posted by Fiiiyer on May 13, 2003 at 11:53:00:
: Ok guys..I'm going trhought his huge trust issue right now, and thought I'd ask the advice of some of the kewlest people I know.
: When God has a plan for you, and you know it...you should just trust that everythings going to work out, right? You should just trust that He'll take care of you, and stop stressing and losing sleep over it, right? Well, I know these things, but it's really hard to put them into practice. It's like, I'll think about the situation(s) and start stressing, worrying about how I'll pay the bills, if I'll find a job that will still let me have a life, if I'll have the right clothes for the job (I own 2 suits, that's it folks!) then I remember that God's got it all taken care of...and the stress decreases and I can forget about it for a while...
: Then...it comes back. So I know I never really let go of it the first time, or the second, or third or fiftieth...so that means I'm not REALLY trusting God...It's like I'm leaning on Him, but I still have a hold of a rope tied to a tree...I'm not really trusting Him to catch me. That scares me and I DON'T like it!
I can guarantee you when you are ready for it (or should I say, when God decides you are ready) you will truly be tested in that whole trust thing. Every crisis comes and with it brings an opportunity to grow into a deeper relationship with Him. Each time your trust will grow, His voice gets stronger and you let go a little more of the Nancy you know. That's not to say you become less, rather I think you become more of who you were always meant to be.
But don't stress over not being able to continually trust, we are cyclical creatures and while it seems you are losing ground - that's just an illusion. Linear beings have a hard time seeing the big picture just remember your in it and it's all good!
Now Breathe in....
Exhale.......
Let go a little.....
: I've been so independent and so un-trusting my entire life...but I thought that with God, it would be different, that I'd TOTALLY be able to trust him with no holds barred...but my worldly experiences still have me trapped in a vicious cycle of untrust and independence. These are two of my most ingrained qualities...and I don't know how to let those qualities go.
: I'm supposed to be 'transformed', and I have been in so many ways...but I'm still not...know what I mean?
: "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God" Romans 12:2
: What do you fine folks think about this quandry?
What quandry? This is the way it is suppossed to be. It is good that it bothers you. It so very real to you, you want it to change-NOW. You want to be That Nancy now. This is so very good. I want it, too. I long for it like nothing else. Let me give you a new "P" word, it is Patience.
Much Love to you too
kat