Posted by Fiiiyer on May 13, 2003 at 11:53:00:
Ok guys..I'm going trhought his huge trust issue right now, and thought I'd ask the advice of some of the kewlest people I know.
When God has a plan for you, and you know it...you should just trust that everythings going to work out, right? You should just trust that He'll take care of you, and stop stressing and losing sleep over it, right? Well, I know these things, but it's really hard to put them into practice. It's like, I'll think about the situation(s) and start stressing, worrying about how I'll pay the bills, if I'll find a job that will still let me have a life, if I'll have the right clothes for the job (I own 2 suits, that's it folks!) then I remember that God's got it all taken care of...and the stress decreases and I can forget about it for a while...
Then...it comes back. So I know I never really let go of it the first time, or the second, or third or fiftieth...so that means I'm not REALLY trusting God...It's like I'm leaning on Him, but I still have a hold of a rope tied to a tree...I'm not really trusting Him to catch me. That scares me and I DON'T like it!
I've been so independent and so un-trusting my entire life...but I thought that with God, it would be different, that I'd TOTALLY be able to trust him with no holds barred...but my worldly experiences still have me trapped in a vicious cycle of untrust and independence. These are two of my most ingrained qualities...and I don't know how to let those qualities go.
I'm supposed to be 'transformed', and I have been in so many ways...but I'm still not...know what I mean?
"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God" Romans 12:2
What do you fine folks think about this quandry?
much love
~N~