Posted by quequel on January 14, 2003 at 15:45:35:
In Reply to: ideal close relationships must be tried in the school of the real.... posted by giveawayboy on January 14, 2003 at 08:51:45:
I have begun to notice that so many of the people that seem to have the most amazing lives and minds deal with consistent, tho not constant, loneliness. I have always written best in a large crowd, just because I always feel a bit separate, more like an onlooker or a butterfly than a part of the connection. Only with my mom and one of my brothers do I really feel CONNECTED all the time, tho I used to feel that way with Suzy. I miss Suzy. I was an only child for many years, and a bit mystically inclined, so most of the time it's just been me and God. Which might mean that I've added my imagination to God, but I suppose we all do to an extent.
I'm babbling. Basically I'm saying that it seems like we all feel it or stifle it. And that no matter what we might idealize in relationships, people will always be separate in ways, and that's okay. It keeps us meeting other people. It is really nice when we can have a connection, though. I miss Suzy. I miss all of you--I've thoroughly enjoyed the moments of connection with each of you.
As John Lee would say, "Sigh..."