Posted by giveawayboy on November 07, 2002 at 07:48:22:
In Reply to: I'm not dead yet. posted by Tiff on November 07, 2002 at 06:43:02:
: I'm not dead yet. Sorry I haven't been around at all lately. Things are a little tough with school and such recently and I too have gotten sick. I've been in my own little funk on top of things and have been feeling hermitish. Is that even a word? Oh well. I feel confused about alot of stuff in my life right now. Sometimes I wonder where my faith really lies and how sturdy it is. I wonder about what I think I believe in and what it stands for. I ask myself if I even know what I'm trying to believe in anymore. I don't know. I guess I just feel a little lost. All of a sudden I get this feeling that I don't know what it means to be "christian". Like I don't know the meaning of the word and I shouldn't call myself that because I don't have the right to. I tend to wonder if I have been running blindly and have no idea where I'm headed. Anyway- enough with the negativity. I'm just having a rough day. Just needed to vent a little I guess.
: I will do my best to make it Sunday. I miss you guys.
Wow! I feel like this alot. Especially the Christian part. I won't give you an easy answer here though. O.K. Tiffers, pray for me and I'll pray for you. I'm going on my fourth day real sick. I'm not at the 'doctor' level yet, but if it persists I might have to go get checked out. Anyway, I HAVE TO WORK as I've already missed two days and can't afford to continue missing. Now I feel like I've joined the ranks of some people I know who are sick on an ongoing basis. Plus, I haven't had my nightly walk in a few days. I'm really starting to feel it. This thing has really been kicking alot of our asses. But, I know that God can work through even illness.
God bless, Bill