Posted by jonvon on September 03, 2003 at 17:23:23:
In Reply to: new poem posted by giveawayboy on September 01, 2003 at 01:13:21:
this did not suck. its kinda how i feel almost all the time. i don't want to be "right" any more. "right" always gets reconfigured. in the meantime i've beaten up any number of people trying to reconfigure *them* according to the current configuration that will inevitably get reconfigured anyway. at the center of it is arrogance, which largely proceeds out of a sense that what i believe is essentially undefendable (at some level). along with this arrogance is a lot of sarcasm.
somehow when i stop defending what i believe a lot of stuff comes clear. some of the stuff i hung onto disappears. no longer need to defend that... its gone. some of it sticks around forever, undeniable. don't need to defend that either, it just is. people stop getting beaten up over it. everyone can live and breathe and be themselves without having to conform to the demands of some stupid subculture. i don't want to be tied up inside anyone else's knots.
i can't believe i'm typing this. maybe its good to get it off my chest. maybe not. we'll see.