Posted by Bob - the Alien on July 08, 2002 at 19:55:23:
In Reply to: Re: on being alone, mentors, accountability, etc. posted by jeannie on July 06, 2002 at 20:07:48:
: wow bill!! i couldn't have said it any better!! my last experience with real struggle like this was different from yours though - hope this helps you raul: a whole lifetime of, quite honestly, pain that i thought i was over with YEARS AGO suddenly came to a big ugly head through a series of events in my life over the last several years. this "big head" plummeted me into a two and a half year depression through which i felt the most exquisite pain of my life. thank god for that! i fought and fought and fought and one day, finally, i died. the death was soooooo sweet that i have no words to describe it. to finally get to this point, however, i had to be alone through it. by alone, i mean no one around me but god. basically, i isolated myself from everyone. when i finally surrendered the last of the stuff and the people i was holding onto, the freedom i felt was enormous. i remember telling the lord at various points through the whole experience, all i want is truth and freedom. the truth was brutal at times, but the freedom in the end was so worth it. i don't know exactly what you're going through, raul, and maybe knowing my experience won't help you right now, but if you're interested in knowing more, i'd be glad to share it with you. i'm a good listener, too........jeannie
Wow to you. I know this isn't the point of this thread, and I wish raul and everyone the best in resolving their struggles, but this hit me on another level:
I think that this is one of the best Christan/God-based descriptions on one of the main points of Buddhism that I have ever heard.
And for those of weho haven't heard it:
To religious people, buddhism is a science. To scientists, Buddhism is a religion.
Ok, now back to your normally scheduled message board.