Re: on being alone, mentors, accountability, etc.

Posted by jeannie on July 06, 2002 at 20:07:48:

In Reply to: on being alone, mentors, accountability, etc. posted by giveawayboy on July 06, 2002 at 15:23:06:

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: : or should i say screw up!! yeah i realize as the days go by..that i cannot do this living for GOD thing..i just cant..its really discouraging..and while i am not sayin i am givin up..i am sayin that its a soberin thing to know that i cannot do it..i thought at one time that people would be there to keep me accountable..nope they have not..i thought that i would have a mentor to look out for me..i have not..its been 4 hard years..the hardest years of my life.......

i am glad they weren't all perfect people, i wouldn't have wanted that. i want them real. i want to know them that way, as who they are. so, don't give up bro. you will find that as your life goes on you will see rich and strong evidence of mentors and accountability in your life, only hidden at times.

: see ya, Bill, who loves you like butta baby

wow bill!! i couldn't have said it any better!! my last experience with real struggle like this was different from yours though - hope this helps you raul: a whole lifetime of, quite honestly, pain that i thought i was over with YEARS AGO suddenly came to a big ugly head through a series of events in my life over the last several years. this "big head" plummeted me into a two and a half year depression through which i felt the most exquisite pain of my life. thank god for that! i fought and fought and fought and one day, finally, i died. the death was soooooo sweet that i have no words to describe it. to finally get to this point, however, i had to be alone through it. by alone, i mean no one around me but god. basically, i isolated myself from everyone. when i finally surrendered the last of the stuff and the people i was holding onto, the freedom i felt was enormous. i remember telling the lord at various points through the whole experience, all i want is truth and freedom. the truth was brutal at times, but the freedom in the end was so worth it. i don't know exactly what you're going through, raul, and maybe knowing my experience won't help you right now, but if you're interested in knowing more, i'd be glad to share it with you. i'm a good listener, too........jeannie

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• Re: on being alone, mentors, accountability, etc. k@ 15:31:58 07/10/02 (3)
  • Re: on being alone, mentors, accountability, etc. jeannie 17:20:56 07/13/02 (2)
    • what's in a name k@ 17:43:28 07/13/02 (1)
      • Re: what's in a name jeannie 07:27:55 07/15/02 (0)
• Re: on being alone, mentors, accountability, etc. Bob - the Alien 19:55:23 07/08/02 (13)
  • which point is that? giveawayboy 22:38:52 07/09/02 (11)
    • Re: which point is that? Bob - the Alien 17:35:40 07/10/02 (10)
      • Re: which point is that? jeannie 07:20:15 07/11/02 (4)
        • Re: which point is that? PS 18:21:32 07/12/02 (3)
          • Re: which point is that? jeannie 16:36:51 07/13/02 (2)
            • Re: which point is that? Bob - the Alien 23:51:33 07/13/02 (1)
              • East and West don't mix well....if forced.... giveawayboy 04:09:58 07/14/02 (0)
      • let go of your attatchments..... giveawayboy 23:00:41 07/10/02 (4)
        • Re: let go of your attatchments..... jeannie 07:25:52 07/11/02 (3)
          • go jeannie go! giveawayboy 07:36:04 07/11/02 (2)
            • Re: go jeannie go! Bob - the Alien 14:32:46 07/12/02 (1)
              • ohhh, Billlll...... giveawayboy 02:51:59 07/13/02 (0)
  • thanks bob! jeannie 09:41:40 07/09/02 (0)

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